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Deep and fun questions to ask yourself!

Do you like watching sunsets? Yes
Have you ever started a rumor? No
What makes you laugh out loud? Everything except assholes
What was the last concert you went to? Marilyn Manson
If you believed in it, what would you be reincarnated as? Myself
What’s your current vocal exercise? Singing (Hopefully oral sex)
What shirt are you wearing? I’m not wearing one
Who or what are you thinking about? Music
What are your favorite shoes? New Rock
What would easily win you over if someone gave it to you? A book
Three words describe you? Weird, different, special
Do you have any funny memories? No space here
Do you have any anecdotes from when you were drunk? I’ve never been drunk
What’s something you have that you’re sure no one else has? We all share something. Nobody has anything that nobody else has.
Do you have any superstitions? No, but I never walk under a ladder.
What’s your forbidden pleasure? I don’t let my pleasures be forbidden. I enjoy them, period.
What’s the weirdest thing you do when you’re alone? Dance.
What’s the worst food you’ve ever had? If I don’t like something, I don’t eat it.
Which fictional character would you bring to life if you could? Freddy Krueger.
If you could start a career right away, what would it be? Psychology.
What motivates you during the day? That nothing goes wrong with my plan.
What song have you been listening to on repeat lately? «Surrender To the Night» by Minute Taker.
What’s your funniest inside joke? That people are intelligent.
What’s your favorite piece of jewelry? Him.
What’s your favorite theme within your niche market? Goth.
What fandom do you currently belong to? I’ve never belonged to anything.
What’s your most controversial opinion? Be yourself and don’t change for anyone.
What’s your favorite couple and why? Me and myself. No comment.
Do you have piercings or tattoos? What are they? 6 piercings. 5 on my face and the sixth one isn’t visible.
What’s your best and worst quality? Being myself.

The holidays are over, even though they were only supposed to last a week and my initial plan was to rest, but it wasn’t to be. Mina had a crisis and I’ve been acting as her nurse day and night. I thought we were going to lose her, but that hasn’t been the case. By increasing her medication, she’s been recovering a little. At least being on vacation allowed me to keep an eye on her. She’s been on so much medication for a year now that it’s weakening her considerably. Even so, she hasn’t lost her appetite or her will to live. She’s teaching us a great lesson. Giving her the best possible quality of life remains the priority, and the truth is, despite the side effects of the medications that make her almost hyperactive, she’s been very well-behaved.

Anyway, I was able to go out during the day, despite the rain, and take walks, celebrate the Wiccan’s birthday, and enjoy my free time.

These past few days I also wanted to film the music video for what will be the title track of the new album, but between the rain and the fact that the dentist gave me a nasty cut on the right corner of my lip, it wasn’t possible. We’ll try again in about a week.
For now, the single of the house remix of «Make Me Free» is scheduled for this Friday, and although the distributor hasn’t confirmed it yet, a week later, I hope it will arrive on time. I haven’t received the demo of the next remix yet, but it doesn’t matter because for now I’m sticking to the plan and everything is going more or less as expected. These days I’m also working on proofreading my new novel, and although it’s getting harder and harder to concentrate and stay organized without getting distracted, I try to make my lucid, inspired moments productive. It’s something I should be used to, but it really is getting harder and harder. Ten years ago I would have finished proofreading it already, but I’m only a quarter of the way through.
Patience, Javier.

Things seem to be taking shape. Last Monday I went back to the recording studio to record a new song, «Redes,» and it went quite well. The recording was very smooth, and the truth is, the song suits my voice, even though it sometimes feels a little flat, but I think it’s going to be very catchy with the synthpop production.
While I was there, I took the opportunity to tell the producer about a couple of changes to the English version of «Mi Jaula,» which we recorded in January and which was still waiting to be mixed. I told the producer I wanted to discuss it better after listening to it. We also talked about some volume adjustments on the house remix of «Make Me Free» and agreed on what the next step would be: another remix for one of the songs on the new album.

Yes, things are coming together. I’ve already received the finished Spanish version of «Mi Jaula» (titled «My Cage») and the remix of «Make Me Free,» which will be released next week. Just yesterday the producer told me he’d send me a sample for the remix of the next song today, and that’s going to be the next step. I’m considering not releasing the lead single with the album right now, but waiting and releasing what was supposed to be the third single after the album’s release.
The lead song is just too good, and I’d rather have something else that influences the algorithms first. I’ll also wait to see how the remix of the new song goes, since the synth feel we want to give this ballad might mean that the remix ends up being the lead version, and the other one a soul remix.
The important thing is that after the break, things are moving again.

Some nights, the soul feels like a ruined temple.

Dust where there should be fire. Silence where there should be song. And everywhere, the weight of what has not yet been healed, not yet been mended, not yet been redeemed.

I look at the work before me and it seems endless. A road vanishing into blackness. A task too vast for these mortal hands. There are moments when despair whispers its oldest seduction: leave it unfinished. Let it die. Let yourself sink with it.

But truth speaks otherwise.

It is not your duty to finish the work, but neither are you at liberty to neglect it.

So this is what remains when pride has burned away: not triumph, but devotion. Not the fantasy of finishing everything, but the sacred duty of continuing.

Even in darkness.
Even in weariness.
Even when no one sees.
Even when the heart is little more than a bruised lantern trembling against the wind.

Perhaps I was never meant to carry the whole night. Perhaps I was only meant to guard one flame within it.

To lift what I can.
To repair what I touch.
To refuse corruption.
To choose what is clean, what is true, what is just, even with blood in my mouth and shadows at my back.

There is something holy in not surrendering.

Something holy in rising again with ashes on the skin.
In praying with cracked lips.
In building, however slowly, with tired hands.
In standing before the Eternal without crowns, without victories, without excuses, and still saying: I did not turn away.

Let others dream of completion.
Let others worship visible success.

I will be faithful to the fragment.
To the stone I was given.
To the wound I was told to transform.
To the narrow portion of night entrusted to me.

The work may outlive me.
The dawn may come long after I am gone.

Still, I will not abandon the work.
Still, I will not make peace with ruin.
Still, I will keep my small flame alive in the dark.

After asking the producer for several changes to the demo of the new song (which will be the first of the era immediately following the one that just started) to make it sound less ’80s and give it a more modern feel, it seems we now have the final demo, just a couple of tweaks we can make in the studio during recording, such as lowering the tempo, raising the key, and adding an intro. I also want to change the lyrics to make the chorus less tongue-twister-like. This is the song «Redes» (Networks), and I think it’s going to be very catchy.

If all goes well, we’ll record it next Monday, and that will mark the beginning of recording the songs for the next album, which will follow the one coming out this spring.

This time, I’m going to take things more calmly without putting pressure on myself to finish an album every year, given the delays and things beyond my control. When this era that has just begun (and it will be short) comes to an end, singles will be released individually for a while until the album comes out next year. This will be a more conventional way of releasing it, like how it’s done now, where albums are more like compilations of previously released singles with a few new songs than new material. We have to adapt to how things work, as much as I prefer to do it the more conventional way, for reasons of romanticism and nostalgia. These are different times, and if we don’t move with them, we’ll be left behind.

Although I haven’t received the remix of «Make Me Free» yet, yesterday I got the first demo of what will be the first song of the next era, which will begin immediately after the release of the last single from the new album (which I hope will be out in April).

I’m going to call it the «Networks» song, since it’s about people who think they’re important because they have followers and likes on social media and don’t realize that it doesn’t make you better or more important; it just means you’re still nobody to the world.

It’s a song that will follow the synth-pop style I’m going for. It has a very ’80s feel. I told the producer that it reminds me of the TV series Miami Vice, with a very prominent synthesizer keyboard, and that I’d like to change that so it doesn’t sound so ’80s.

I think it’s going to be really good and catchy. We’ll see how the changes go, and I hope to be able to record it in a couple of weeks.