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A lifetime of feeling different, the odd one out, not fitting in, not understanding people, the world, and always hearing the same phrases that reminded me of it, that made me understand I was a burden, that I wasn’t conventional and that I should be, but I neither wanted to nor could be conventional.

Finally, I decided to listen to those voices, look inside myself, and come to the conclusion that the answer might be that my brain is different. That led me to seek professional help and undergo a lot of tests that ended in a diagnosis with which I now know who I am, and in this way, I can continue with my life, or rather, begin to live. A new opportunity.

It turns out I’m autistic, and that’s why I’ve always had difficulties and lived with such awkwardness, while at the same time always getting ahead for another reason, which was another surprise: I’m also gifted.
In neuropsychology, it’s called being twice exceptional. My brain is not only different, but it’s very special. That gives me so many answers, rewrites my whole story, and above all, gives me peace and the tools to manage the exhaustion I’ve carried after years of putting up with it, thinking that what was happening to me was normal, that it happened to everyone.

Now, finally, I’m ready to live my life. It’s never too late.
It turns out you are special, Javier, and it’s about time you started loving yourself, forgiving yourself, and taking advantage of everything that lies ahead.

Love Yourself, the lead single of my next album, is out!

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Love Yourself, the lead single from my upcoming album, will be out this Friday, June 5th. Synthpop for nostalgic dreamers.

Another visit to the Madrid Book Fair. It’s the third year in a row that I won’t be signing books, and also the third year that I haven’t had any novels in bookstores or any plans for new publications. Now I’m approaching everything very differently. Of course, I’m going to publish again; it’s just that I’m going through a reset, a return to square one. I’m back to being the twenty-year-old Javier who started out in this world of literature, and I’m doing it without frustration, without the anxiety of waiting for everything to happen right away. Things will happen, and, most importantly, I’m starting to do everything for myself and not for others. Writing, singing, taking photographs without expecting anything from anyone makes everything purer, more real, and the result more authentic. I’m in another stage of my life where I’m learning not to get angry, where I’m getting to know myself, because I already know who I am, because everything I’ve experienced until now was true, but at the same time, it was a lie.

These days I’m rewriting all the memories of my life in my mind, because now they have an explanation, and above all, knowing who I am at last makes sense, and I feel freer than ever. Above all, I have more desire to do things than I ever have before.

Yes, it’s another rebirth, and I feel that life is giving me a new opportunity to be myself and to finally try to learn how to be a little happy. Will I succeed? I don’t know, because a very long road lies ahead, one that, on the other hand, I intend to travel.

Last Friday, my new single, «Lonely Night,» was released. It’s a preview of my upcoming album, which, if all goes well, will be released next month with its lead single.

I think this song perfectly embodies the sound I want to create from now on, a sound that defines me very well: a fusion of synth-pop and soul, which I call synth-soul.

After «Make Me Free,» I believe this is a logical step forward and the perfect preparation for an eight-song album that will feature a variety of styles (the result of my initial vision for the album, a soul-oriented project, which then evolved into R&B and later synth-pop). These styles will blend seamlessly together and will serve as a prelude to everything that’s to come, which I’m already working on, as I’ve already recorded three songs for the next album.

For me, music is a refuge, a journey, an expression… Music is me, my life, and everything I’ve ever wanted to do. I feel privileged to be able to do it, because it allows me to fulfill one of my greatest dreams: to sing.

Last Tuesday was quite eventful. In the morning, I was in the recording studio once again to record a new track. It’s a ballroom song, possibly the most house-influenced track on the album that will be released next year (if all goes well this year, the new album will be out in June, so it’s just around the corner).
The recording session was one of the fastest, most agile, and smoothest I’ve ever done. The song suits me perfectly, and I felt very comfortable during the session. I didn’t have to do many takes because everything came together quite well the first time. The only minor issue was occasionally making mistakes with the lyrics, which is normal.
I’m really enjoying this new musical phase, where I’m creating songs of a much higher quality than anything I’ve done before, although I’m very proud of my last album, I’m OK I’m Not, which is still my best work to date. I always say the best is yet to come, and I’m convinced that’s true, especially with this new door that has opened in my life, which will allow me to experience a rebirth. Yes, it’s not my first rebirth.

I finally know who I am. I finally have answers to a life filled with clumsiness, stumbles, and misunderstanding from others. I always knew I was different, and now I know why.

“Javier, you’re so weird.” “Don’t be like that, Javier.” “Why are you doing that, Javier?” “Behave yourself, Javier.” “You should change and be like everyone else, Javier…” These are phrases I’ve heard my whole life (and will continue to hear), and they’ve made me feel so small. Now everything makes sense, and I know I’m not small. I’m huge, because I have the most powerful weapon I could ever possess: knowledge. It’s been a process that has lasted a whole month (two since I decided to start). It’s turned out to be a very difficult, hard, and painful journey, but the kind that hurts on the inside, not the outside, and it’s been worth it. To put it simply, it’s as if dawn has suddenly broken.

Knowing who I am has not only given me a new opportunity and answers to many things and behaviors, but it has also brought me sadness (for feeling that everything would have been different if I had known sooner and for many memories that have always made me unhappy) and anger (for all those who have treated me badly for being different). The past can’t be changed, and now I just have to look ahead.
Welcome to the rest of your life, Javier.

The release week begins. This coming Friday, my new single, «Lonely Night,» comes out as a preview of my upcoming album, which I hope will be available in June.

Everything is ready, and the music video is finished too. In the end, I used the footage we shot a few months ago (I usually shoot music videos well in advance so I’m not caught short on time). I wanted to shoot a different one (because I appear with crosses, and I don’t wear them anymore), but I haven’t had the time, and frankly, I haven’t felt like it either. It’s getting harder and harder for me to shoot music videos, and I’ve decided to always opt for simplicity and ease. I’ll be wearing crosses in the video, but when I filmed it, it represented me, so that’s also me. It’ll be like the breakup video.
The next single is also almost ready; I just need to prepare the photos and edit the music video. This time, very little time will pass, and I hope it will be released only a month after «Lonely Night.» That’s because I’m behind schedule with the initial plan due to personal reasons. The new album should be out already, but it’s okay. June isn’t a bad month either. The wheels are in motion.

Madonna is finally back, and she’s going all out. A year and a half ago, she announced she was recording new music and would be releasing a house album for the dance floor. It was later revealed that it would be a follow-up to her landmark album, Confessions on the Dance Floor, released in 2005, and produced by Stuart Price. Initially slated for release at the end of last year, it was delayed for unknown reasons. Finally, almost two weeks ago, the release of Confessions II was announced for July 3rd, along with the cover art and different editions available for pre-order. The first single from the album, «I Feel So Free,» was also released, and despite not being a single, it’s performing well on the charts with around 4.5 million streams on Spotify in just over a week.

The song sounds powerful and is a blend of 90s house music with the whispered vocals of Madonna’s own «Justify My Love.» It’s a perfect song for the dance floor, and it’s just the introduction to an album that will have sixteen tracks.

After making an appearance last week at Sabrina Carpenter’s Coachella concert, performing a duet titled «Bring Your Love,» the single’s release date has been announced today. It will be released in three days, on April 30th. This song has all the ingredients to become a huge hit and return Madonna to the top of the charts worldwide.
There were many rumors about this possible duet, and it has finally become a reality. I think it’s perfect because it brings together the Queen of Pop and one of the current pop princesses in a single song. Newer generations aren’t aware of what Madonna means to music, what she was, and what she continues to be. Her duet with Sabrina Carpenter, one of the most popular artists among young people today, is a brilliant move. For me, it’s the best introduction to this era, which promises to be one of the best in Madonna’s entire career. I’m really looking forward to it because everything I’ve seen and heard has captivated me. Maybe not so much the album cover, but that’s beside the point.
Personally, I think this return to music by Madonna, after seven years without an album, is about regaining hope in music and having a great sense of excitement for everything that’s to come.