In this whirlwind of feelings, emotions, changes, and everything that’s been happening all at once lately, I’m experiencing an earthquake of sensations inside that I can’t quite explain, but which will soon have an explanation. I’ll finally know who I am, if I’m what I always thought I was, or something so different that it will be a new beginning. This uncertainty is eating me up inside, but I have to keep going day by day.
That’s on top of Mina’s death, the delicate moment the Wiccan community is going through, and, honestly, I still don’t know how I’m managing it all without going crazy or starting to walk on the ceiling.
Meanwhile, we have to keep going; the world keeps turning, and I’m not going to stop for myself.
This week I started receiving the demos of what will be the new song we’re going to record, the ballroom song, and I’m really excited. The producer and I have been communicating these past few days to polish the details. I’m minimalist with the beats, and he’s creative, so we always try to find a middle ground. It’s almost finished, and we’re still deciding whether to record it this Tuesday or next. I think doing it next week would be too soon, and it still needs some polishing, but it’s going to be amazing.
I hope the new album comes out in June, and this one we’re working on will be for next year. And (including the English version of «Mi Jaula,» titled «My Cage»), with this song, we’ll have three.
My next single is already scheduled for May 8th. It’s going to be called «Lonely Night,» and initially, it was going to be a very ’80s-style soul ballad, but in the end, the synth-pop remix version we recorded recently will be the main version because it’s very much in line with where I want to go now, and it connects perfectly with «Make Me Free,» which will be the album’s lead single and also its title track. I’m really looking forward to everything being released after the delay with my initial plan.
Regarding literature, I’ve revisited an idea I was working on while developing the novel I just finished. It was a story set in the early seventies about a gay boy who wants to be a singer. After much thought and reviewing all my outlines, I’ve decided it might be a good idea to move the setting to the early eighties, during the height of the Movida Madrileña cultural movement, and also revisit an idea I had some time ago about writing a story about an Alaska fanatic. Everything would be connected. Preparing this novel will take me at least a few days (or weeks), and I’m eager to start writing it.
